It’s been a long day… homeschooling my two precious daughters, cleaning house, completing laundry, returning emails and taking “the team” to complete the daily juice deliveries. Let’s not forget that food has to be made for the family… and of course, not just one meal, but three… so in the kitchen I was!

5:30pm quickly approaches and I am thinking to myself ‘what’s my excuse for not going to bikram tonight?’ I’ve gotta have one, I mean, come on! Look at how busy I was all day! I pace about the house asking myself “am I going? am I staying?”

Excuses are EASY!! And waaaaay overused! What was I trying to get out of? Healing my body and gaining more strength from my practice?? The excuses didn’t measure up to my bikram possibilities.

6pm is here and I announce to the family that Mom is going to yoga tonight I receive a dozen kisses and hugs and little waves from the home windows as I cruise away.

6:30pm… yoga begins.

Now, take a little bit of time while reading this next little bit and imagine you being ME… try to envision what it is that I experienced in my class tonight…

My mind is filled with thoughts from the week… frustrating thoughts, heartbreaking thoughts, thoughts of questions. I place my mat on the floor in the Torture Chamber and sit staring at myself in the mirror in front of me. “Clear your thoughts, Malynda. Let it all go. It is all out of your control. This is your time now.” and with a full inhale and relieving exhale, my mind was quiet. and for the first time today, I sit calm and ready!

Class begins and my focus is all on my inner strength and outer goddess Long in length… strong in heart… confident backbends… smiling in every posture… and energy like nothing else. it was a special time. Just me in my self-reliant bubble making all of me count and all of bikram heal.

I thanked myself numerous times for making the decision to attend class this evening. I thanked myself for just being ME. I laid there at the end of class and gave thanks to this amazing practice… I shared mentally all what I appreciate in this moment of my life… my daughters, my husband, my “job” in which I don’t consider a job at all… it’s my passion! I appreciate my honest and trustworthy friends and the family that is here for me. I appreciate My life.

As I stretch up and out of this coma of thankful thoughts, I gather my water bottle and yoga mat and give one last thanks to each… it’s an entire circle of appreciation.

I enter the ladies locker room and decide to shower before heading home (not something I ever do, I’d rather shower at home). I allow for the cold water to run all over me and for some reason, the chill doesn’t have a negative effect on me… as I use the body wash, I say to myself “all of this weeks bad energy is being washed away as of now” and down the drain it went. I kept washing and rinsing and after 5 minutes of this, I felt brand new. I left the studio with an uplifted soul that I couldn’t wait to shower upon my adoring family once I got home. Life is so precious.

Now, this is the third day of this week that I have attended bikram, and it was in this third day where it has really hit my heart. I was told to stay away from bikram for some time until my electrolyte level has increased (details on that is saved for another future blog post) but felt a great need to step into the practice this week. and with an open heart and clear mind, I appreciate the desire that burned so much in me to get me to class

I love life. I love all of you.

Namaste.

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